This has got to stop. Im not superman nor am i Houdini. I don't make wonders. Though i do make things happen but you've got to give me time. Can't expect me to run around and do performances for you last minute? Firstly i'll get screwed by the advisors for last minute admin stuff.
"Don't do this lei, later the FCC people all get confuse and the keys all get mixed up"
Well screw it cause it's not my fault things happen last minute. I can't work on tight schedules and neither can i work without them. So please, give me some space to stretch before my legs start to cramp and i'll start kicking peoples asses.
To think i can sit back, relax, and enjoy a cup of cappucino (since when do i drink expresso?) after months of rehearsals which i think sucked though we saved the best for the last. But here i am, down on Earth with schedules back to back, i don't know which one i should clear first. So i have this master plan. I'll just ignore all of it. But if i do that, i'll probably get more people up my back scratching my skin off. At times like this, i feel like shouting "FUCK BALLS!" Can someone come here and give me a hug.
So let's do a 'what to do list'...
1. The brief for David for the cleaner's documentary
2. Percussion Ensemble
3. Percussion last minute performance at SunLove home)
4. .....
Shit! I forgot what i was suppose to do. I have too many last minute things on my hands now. Meetings.. Meetings.. More meetings.. Oi!
I've just realised that i've changed my attitute towards school. I've become more commited towards it. When i was in secondary school, i was the 'slackiest' person there was. I never attended extra classes if i thought it was boring and i never did enjoy my lessons. I took up only one CCA which was Drama and after productions which is like only once a year (sometimes it goes up to 2-3) i'll probably slack around with my friends. I did 'run away' from lessons back then. Vey naughty boy indeed. And who would have imagined that i was an assisant head prefect back in primary school and the only malay male prefect in Secondary two. A Chairman in Secondary 3 and a Vice Chairman in Secondary Four. The guy who started the class riot against the teacher and the guy who started a revolution to go agaisnt the teachers. I was anti everything back then. Why the sudden change?
Am i that influencial? I told my old friends how busy i was and they all gave me that 'what the hell' tone. No one could believe me and never will. Maybe i guess i like to take up challenges and maybe cause RP gave me lots of oppurtunities to get bolder in what i do. Am not here to make a name. I was notorious back then for my attitude. I remembered once i came back all the way to school to scold my teacher cause he scolded my mum for not asking me to come to school.
"You not happy you can scold me cause i made the decision not to come to school. Don't you dare make my mum involve in this"
Those wer the words i said to him. Still clear in my head. I guess im doing this out of passion. I hate fame. Cause fame creates gossip. Fame gives you a bad name. Fame is not everything. Passion is the word that drives us towards our goal. If i was given a chance, i'll probably be doing something i like than doing something for the name. I wonder what people will remember me for?
"Hafez ahz? Oh that asshole"
"Hafez? Who?
"Hafez? Which Hafez? So many"
"Hafez! Oh Hafez! I know he the one that.. eh he do what ah?
.: HafEz LoVES StraWBeRRy JaM :.
