I've got this feeling that someone's been listening to Britney Spears cause apparently he/she thinks that 'I was born to make you happy'. Well, first things first, I ain't no Britney (unless of course you're that blind and stupid) and secondly, I DON'T FREAKING LISTEN TO SOME SONG LYRICS AND APPLY IT TO MY EVERYDAY LIFE! THIS AIN'T NO FAIRYTALE LAND THAT WE LIVE IN! Sorry, my
Caps Lock button suddenly went berserk. But yeah, I hope you get the idea. Let's just put it this way, it's what we call a two way kind of thing. You don't bug me, I don't bug you. Fair enough?
Call me stupid but there's just something that's been bothering me since God knows when. I just can't shake the feeling away. It's just one of those days when you feel like sleeping helps to clear the thoughts in your head and each time you see something that triggers that chain of thoughts which were supposingly on hibernation mode before you saw the thing, you become so freaking mad, it becomes chaotic. Do you even get what I'm saying or must we break it down to shorter sentences cause I have this habit of not using the fullstop. Okay. Is. This. Better. For. You?
The time's ticking and I'm looking for something to do. In a way I'm relieved that my work load is at it's minimal though I still have some unfinished business to do but I like to keep myself busy. To the point that I'm busy trying to figure out what I'm busy with. Yes I do complaint about my 'stressful' life but it's things like this that make me 'awake'. I always get trapped in some strange land when I'm alone, especially during the night when no ones around to bug you to do something. There's this particular spot in the house where I can clearly see the road. Cars passing by the empty street, bikes going at least 100km/h like as if they were racing and if you're lucky, you get to see couples fighting (not making out mind you) about how to get back home. It's this little things in life that make you smile and wonder what the hell you're doing there and not out there.
It's true that I can turn paranoid at times. I'm just super protective by nature. But I can't blame myself for that. It's all in the traits. I can't try to deny the fact that I am but it's the way things are. Maybe it's love but I don't really want to rely on that word any longer. To me, it's just a word. A word to make people smile. A word people misunderstand and abuse. A word found in every dictionary in the world. But that's a word so strong, it can either make you or break you. It's really up to the individual. But who am I to judge the usage of such a word. I'm afterall still human and such feelings do happen. But why harness it if it only brings you harm than warmth. Heartless I am not. Trust was the reason for such an action....
.: RuNNiNg WiLd :.
