This entry is for my dear aisyah. She's having difficulty understanding what i'm trying to say in my blogs. Don't worry aisyah, this will be done nicely. I'll feature names this time. So you know who i'm talking about.
It's actually April the 7th. It's about close to 1 am now and i just got home from town. Justifies why the date is dated 8th. But regardless what it is, let's talk a little english now instead of thoughts and thoughts. I've just realised how 'emo' this blog is. Should have called it 'Life is emo' instead.
After prayers, went home to sort of 'slack' cause i was really bored. Suppose to go out with only Zul and his friend taufiq who i just met but it turned out to be an outing with close friends. On the way there, Huda called me up to say that Leandra just asked her out to town. So it tuned out that Leandra was going to meet us up in town too with Owen and Jonas who will join us after his soccer training. So there we were in town slacking around, waiting for Huda's side to come. When the reached, Nick who happens to be Leandra's dancer also tagged along and we went to eat at Lido. It was fun to be around them cause all the lame jokes we make sound so lame which turns out to be funny.
It was getting kind of boring jut sitting around talking crap so we headed to our next destination which was Cineleisure. There my friends, was where hell begun. We started singing our hearts out. I swear we were close to doing buskering if we had drums. We sure tore Long John's Silver down with our so called 'dikir barat' songs and 'love songs'. Songs we listened to back then during our secondary school days. Overall i would say it was fun. Fun enough to do it all over again.
So here's today's story aisyah. It's a rarity to see me feature names cause i don't like doing so. I rather put 'anonymous' but some of them are rather clear cut, that is if you know me well. And yes aisyah i believe you do. Now back to where we were...
Boredom became my companion for now. Surrounded by darkness i felt the urge to fun aimlessly in the dark but the fear or knocking into something and hurting myself in the progress stoped the urge. On the way back to the crib, i felt it. I felt it all over again. That feeling on something being lost. I don't care who or what it is. But deep down inside i know you have cutted me deeply. So deep it just penetrated through the heart with that piercing knife you hold. But who am i to you? I am just a patient who needs your effort to put me through together. But after your operation, i'll just be the shadow that will follow you wherever you may go. The bond we had is losing it's grip. Now i know what you meant but the justifications you made. I think we had made the right choice.. but still.. i love you...
.: RuNNiNg awaY Won't SoLveD aNytHinG, iT MakeS tHiNgS MorE CoMpliCatED :.
