I had this bestfriend back in my secondary school days. Her name is Rachel. Now let me change that 'had' in the first line to 'have' cause i've jst realised that good things in life cannot be replaced. So i thought, when i entered RP, new life, new friends, new best friend, i told myself, i haven't found anyone who could atually replace her.
It's strange, my relationship with Rachel. I never had this 'extra' feelings for her. She was really a friend to me. Someone i could turn to. Someone there when i'm bored. We used to have really long conversations on the phone back then. And the best part is she's my classmate for two years and makes me wonder isn't 8 hours a day talking face to face not enough. Well the answer was no obviously.
I think we became really shaky near the end of our secondary school life. It became worse after we officially left each other. No more late nights. No more 'hey i want to complaint to you' No more best friend. I was busy with school and she was busy with work. I couldn't care less about my old friends and neither did they. She called me once in awhile to say hi but i'll always break my promise to call her back.
So i guess today's conversation on the phone really changed the way it was. She misses me alot and so do i. Even when i was attached back then (she always had something agaisnt my girlfriends) i will always go back to her for comfort. I'll be meeting her soon afer almost a year without her around. ABout replacing her. no, i havent found anyone to replace her. Someone close to replacing her yes but no one who could officially replace her. She is after all, my 'real' other half. No, not my significant other, shes like my alter ego other half if that's the correct term for it.
Speaking of which, i think its about time for me to settle down. Get myself a partner. My expectations of a good near perfect grilfriend is higher now. Compared to my old 'anything' goes lifestyle. So you thought i was bad, well, i was worse back then. What i really want from a girl...
1. Understanding
2. be there for me when i need her
3. Accept me for who i am
4. Be able to take my schedules cause its really packed
5. Love me
I remembered this line from my ex girlfriend. Thought i share it with all. 'Appreciate my strong points and tolerate my weak points' Though it may sound not much to some, for me it made me feel bad cause the line was refering to me. So yeah, she tolerated me alot and in a way i abused that love. To all my ex girlfriends (chey macam banyak) i would like to apologize for breaking your hearts (if i ever did) and for all the nonsense that you had to put up with. And for all the girls that ditched me, well... i also don't know what to say.. Enjoy yourself lah eh
.: I HaD EveRytHinG :.
Ash, my old buddy from Ethnic Drums (now known as Percussion Ensemble), Sharime (the new kid in Percussion Ensemble) stayed back in school after our performance at SunLove Home. Its this home for the aged in the Marsiling area, and we were sent there to so call bring music to entertain all. I had loads of fun definately though i thought it was little too short. So i left the two in the room while i went for my 'break'
I heard Ash drumming away from the outside. But all i heard was just drums and nothing else so i figure we was teaching Sharime how to drum. But as i got closer, i heard pianos. I was asking myself who is in that room playing the piano? I got quite a shock when i saw the kid playing the piano. A reallt great shock. I didn't know he could play.
So i asked them to play again and yes it was beautifully mixed. So i tried to play along. I couldn't really play the djembe cause my hands were numb after all that hitting to hard session. So i was looking around for something to play and i found this really cool instrument which i don't know what name it has on it. Just imagine church bells. Thats the sound they produce.
So yeah, the partial low quality sound clip is good enough for me. Please do hear it and tell me what you think. Just holler at me in MSN and i'll pass it to you.
.: ThatS a STaRt :.
Adui will be the word to describe my situation now. A little messed up, but still functioning. No, nothing to do with my personal life though i think it sucks (at times) its about my commitments in school. I can't work on pressure i realised, but neither do i like to sit around doing nothing. I'm worse than a a female who is having problems on what clothes she wants to buy! Oops, sorry for my stereotyping but my girlfriends (as in strictly friends) are pain in the asses when they go shopping.
Besides that point, ive got Mummy to help me clear my stuff in Percussion Ensemble. So i guess thats a load of my shoulder. My babies in Percussion Ensemble are the best. Love you all many many ah. (But sorry lah, still can't beat my Redhill Blues Cast lah, they rock more, a little more only)
With all bad things, there's always a sunshine in the rain. Err, okay that sounded a little gay. i'll be doing collaborative work with MCG. Makes life easier for me. I contribute to them, they help me bring up Percussion Ensemble's name. Get's us more exposure and i get to keep my babies, and probably get new babies too!
And yeah, i made someone pissed today. Nothing new i guess. But hey, i've cut down on the people i piss off each day. Like for example Aisyah, haven't been talking to her for a long time. Cause firstly im just busy and secondly she thinks im irritating so yeah, why bother talking. Once in awhile i'll pop in to introduce to her some crap and school related stuff. But besides that, nah i'll leave her alone. She's probably happier that way.
Its been a long time since i've talked to Nanie too. She's i don't know where and yeah the occasional 'his and byes'. I miss this two ladies of course. I've got to admit cause they are after all the only two ladies in Fee Faan who are still active. Past is past, leave it as it is. Time flies and people change. I guessed i've changed in that way. To leave people who can't accept you for who you are. No im not applpying to them of course. I respect them cause they can tolerate my nonsense.
Someone mentioned to me once why my entries have only girls name in it. Ill tell you the reason, one im not gay and two isn't it a little weird for a guy to talk about another guy.
"Oh i went out with him today and it was so cool"
"I ate with him today during lunch"
"He thinks im not being sincere"
Err.. Get my point??
.: ThaNkS fOr EvEryThiNg :.
This has got to stop. Im not superman nor am i Houdini. I don't make wonders. Though i do make things happen but you've got to give me time. Can't expect me to run around and do performances for you last minute? Firstly i'll get screwed by the advisors for last minute admin stuff.
"Don't do this lei, later the FCC people all get confuse and the keys all get mixed up"
Well screw it cause it's not my fault things happen last minute. I can't work on tight schedules and neither can i work without them. So please, give me some space to stretch before my legs start to cramp and i'll start kicking peoples asses.
To think i can sit back, relax, and enjoy a cup of cappucino (since when do i drink expresso?) after months of rehearsals which i think sucked though we saved the best for the last. But here i am, down on Earth with schedules back to back, i don't know which one i should clear first. So i have this master plan. I'll just ignore all of it. But if i do that, i'll probably get more people up my back scratching my skin off. At times like this, i feel like shouting "FUCK BALLS!" Can someone come here and give me a hug.
So let's do a 'what to do list'...
1. The brief for David for the cleaner's documentary
2. Percussion Ensemble
3. Percussion last minute performance at SunLove home)
4. .....
Shit! I forgot what i was suppose to do. I have too many last minute things on my hands now. Meetings.. Meetings.. More meetings.. Oi!
I've just realised that i've changed my attitute towards school. I've become more commited towards it. When i was in secondary school, i was the 'slackiest' person there was. I never attended extra classes if i thought it was boring and i never did enjoy my lessons. I took up only one CCA which was Drama and after productions which is like only once a year (sometimes it goes up to 2-3) i'll probably slack around with my friends. I did 'run away' from lessons back then. Vey naughty boy indeed. And who would have imagined that i was an assisant head prefect back in primary school and the only malay male prefect in Secondary two. A Chairman in Secondary 3 and a Vice Chairman in Secondary Four. The guy who started the class riot against the teacher and the guy who started a revolution to go agaisnt the teachers. I was anti everything back then. Why the sudden change?
Am i that influencial? I told my old friends how busy i was and they all gave me that 'what the hell' tone. No one could believe me and never will. Maybe i guess i like to take up challenges and maybe cause RP gave me lots of oppurtunities to get bolder in what i do. Am not here to make a name. I was notorious back then for my attitude. I remembered once i came back all the way to school to scold my teacher cause he scolded my mum for not asking me to come to school.
"You not happy you can scold me cause i made the decision not to come to school. Don't you dare make my mum involve in this"
Those wer the words i said to him. Still clear in my head. I guess im doing this out of passion. I hate fame. Cause fame creates gossip. Fame gives you a bad name. Fame is not everything. Passion is the word that drives us towards our goal. If i was given a chance, i'll probably be doing something i like than doing something for the name. I wonder what people will remember me for?
"Hafez ahz? Oh that asshole"
"Hafez? Who?
"Hafez? Which Hafez? So many"
"Hafez! Oh Hafez! I know he the one that.. eh he do what ah?
.: HafEz LoVES StraWBeRRy JaM :.
I never did expect this, but i've reached my 100th entry. After 7 attempts to establish a place for me to thrash my thoughts, i've finally made it to a 3 digit number. Okay, it's still a small number, but come on, it's a start. I've heard of people with 400 over entries. Talk about really blogging huh. I bet her archive must be quite full of memories. I wouldn't want to read about her past.
So let's recap. If you frequent my blog, you would see a vast difference between the entries dated way back then and now. After so many 'i don't understand' comments, its time to talk proper english. I think the only person who understood me was Aisyah. Was it you? I forgot but i remembered someone who could understand what i wrote in here. Well not 100% of it but she got about 65% of it right. My entries are quite indirect back. Ahh.. why don't you go see it for yourselves and you'll understand what im trying to say.
Opened my mail today and guess what? More clashes. Thanks lah eh. I thought i could take a really long break after my production but i guess i can't sit still for too long. I'll need to settle my babies and make sure they are in tip top condition for their performance next month. Or is it next two months? I'm confused with the dates. Mummy ELIZA!!! You better be a good secretary and take down dates for me okay Mummy. If anything screws up, Daddy will come and look for Mummy tau.
Oh yeah, thought i feature someone today. Today i'll feature Eliza. Oops. Sorry lah. Don't know who else to feature ah. Always Aisyah jer i feature so today i feature someone else lah. Eliza is my secretary for Percussion Ensemble. I call her mummy cause... oh yeah long story. Let's go back to square one.
I call the members of Percussion Ensemble my Babies. I call the drums babies too. But the kids are called 'human babies' so its easier to differentiate between the 'whackable' ones and the 'non-whackable' ones. So by default, i'm called Daddy (very Matish? So does that make the white people Mats too if they called their father Daddy?') So since she's my secretary, shes considered my partner in crime. So im Daddy and shes Mummy. Simple? Strictly business of course. Its just a term, not anything special. Im not dating her and neither am i going to 'steal' her cause shes already attached. So grow up with that mentality of yours which always assumes stuff that happen in front of your eyes.
One thing i find very attractive about her is her 'slenge-ness' if theres such a word. Hehe. Sorry lah Mummy but very cute lah you when you slenge. Just for the extra information, loosely translated, slenge means naive? Or is it blur? I'm not too sure myself but hey! She's cute! I met her while we were having a jamming session. She messaged me once to tell me she couldn't come for a training session, but i thought the girl who messaged me was a Chinese. So when i saw her, i was telling myself "Eh you is this girl. Just come in with no acknowledgement and how come my other members never introduce her to me?"
But anyways, thats about her. Don't want to say so much. Cause scared Mummy scold ah. Haha. Tak mau marah marah tau. Nanti cepat tua. Next entry.. i'll talk about someone else. Someone special..... Let's talk about... hmm
.: MiSS MuRDeR :.
New on the playlist, The All American Rejects with their song called Move Along. If you've never heard of it then you better do something about that player of yours. Get an upgrage or something and tune in to the radio if you ain't got an MP3.
Quite irritated with this blogger thing cause each time i do an entry and try to publish after that, nothing gets publish. And theres always this error message which says something like can't connect to blogger or something like that. So i figure i do my entries the next day cause the connection at night sucks like crazy. Not my internet connection of course, the blogger connection. What? You going to sue me for saying this? Well screw it cause this is my feedback. Erm.. eh hi!
Anyways, the new canteen in school just opened. My friend said the layout looked alot like a Malaysian kopitiam. Jonas's friend said it looked like an Airport coffeeshop. So my conclusion is that the new air-conditioned canteen in my school is like a Malaysian Airport coffeeshop layout filled with people to the extend that the new old cafe/canteen became a ghost town.
My recomendation, try the Indonesian BBQ store. That my friend is the second best to good school food. Now that sounded like a tongue twister. But back to my makansutra section. The 'ayam bakar' direct translation would be 'chicken burn'.. okay okay.. ish.. its called fried chicken, is a meal which is worth the long waiting time and your money spent. The sauce which i think is black pepper is sweet yet spicy. Get my drift? No should be get my taste? Erm.. Lame!
So yeah no more food critic and analysis. I'll probably fail in that industry cause i know nuts about food, let alone how to describe taste to people who have never tasted it before. I know the basics of course like sweet, sour, bitter, erm... what else is there? Blur to the max.
Oh yeah let me tell you what i think. I think STA students (not all of course) in general are nice people to hang out with but, theres a but here, they are people you can hang out at that moment of time. You can't keep them for long cause they are probably be too busy trying to act cool. So what if i'm a transfered student? What? Im not part of the so called STA family? What STA family anyways? I don't see anything happy going around. Well just for your information my dear pure blooded STA students, we got choosen into the school cause of what we showed. Potential. You got in by default. Meaning you got in because of your grades. But grades are just grades. Do you have the potential? Well, i've seen students who you guys call the transfer students do better work than people who are pure blooded. Well, im going to make a big fuss about this barrier. I don't care if you guys are going to hate me. Cause im standing up to what i believe in. And that is equality. So screw you people who think that this course is just for you. Go. Go on. Make a big hoo haa out of it. STA guerilla warfare is about to start. Its us against you. I might just start a revolution...
This blog entry does not apply to the class of E26P. I think my class rocks though i hardly mix around with them. Does not apply to my friends who i can call friends in STA like Huda, Darly, Emma.... and the list goes on. Does not apply to all transfer students, cause i think we are in the same boat unless of course they converted you into a walking STA zombie. Does not apply to Natasha of course. She's i think my only STA friend who doesn't have that 'im STA and im cool' aura on her. SHe has this 'im cool with anything' aura. This entry does not apply to the facilitators cause i think i have the greatest support from them. Well screw it! This entry is only for that someone. Yes that big fat ass helium person. What you want a piece from the anorexic guy? Well come get it. Before he gets you.
.: DuM DuM DiLi DiLi FaTTy BoMbArDy :.
I did a pretty long entry the night before, but I lost it. Damn. It had all the juicy stuff in it. Well i guess it wasn't meant to be shown. But anyways, i'm lazy to do it again but i'll sum it up in a few lines.
Its about the events that happened at Ekkawat's house..
About Natasha..
About the Macdonald incident..
About a conversation with Kak As..
and..
Okay i forgot what i wrote in it..
No mood to update today cause i'm juzt tired and lazy.
.: LetS ReCaP :.
Night has approached to greet the people. Morning is now a thing of the past and something people don't wish to see after night leaves. So we are stuck between choosing between accepting things as they come or to choose what we want to call it our own life. Then where does fate come into this scenario?
As the feet takes the body closer to a place where it feels like heaven, after a day which never seems to end, the mind is whispering surrender while the body retaliates and replies harshly to whatever the mind has to say. Now that we know who's having a conflict here, let's try to settle things before it gets out of hand, which i think is already in the process as you read this.
I wonder scietifically how people think after they see things that look out of place in their minds. How are assumptions made without a proper justification and based on what the eyes see and what the mind thinks. Though we all want to run away from the fact that no one can accept the truth, sometimes the truth is better than lies which you know is inevitable as personal feelings are mixed with thoughts in the head. Well, it's about time someone drains that out but even i can't do it. So i guess it's easier to say than do.
So who is this person? Is is true that more attention is diverted to this person compared to others? Why the sudden intimate distance? How long has this been going on? Are there any dirty little secrets? How will the person react to you after he finds out about what's been going on? So many questions but no answers to them.
.: WiLL You StaY :.
For starters, i was late for work again. That's not surprising cause i'm never punctual for anything unless of cause i've got a certain motivation to be there early. Work was pretty messed up cause i was sleepy and things got worse when the managers got into a little tiff about some paperwork a staff screwed up. Its kind of weird to be smacked in the middle of a war cause both parties are your friends, in a way, and who are you suppose to support.
"I support you! No. I support you. Eh no. You.. Eh No you.."
Ive been tired since last Thursday. That party really drained me out. Okay Hafez no more parties for you. And all thanks to Natasha who i call my own personal wake up call. She wakes me up when im on the verge of reaching dreamland. okay let's do a recap.
The first time was during Drama camp. She woke me up in the morning cause Ms Serene wanted us to get up for some warm up exercise. But half the camp was still sleeping. The second time was during our sleepover at Zara. Okay im not sure who woke who up but i know i couldn't sleep after that. The third time was at Ekka's house. After her very 'interesting' story she told Gurmit and me, i fell asleep but she had to wake me up and i couldn't get back to sleep after that. The best part was that we had a technical run the next day at the Esplanade. I was so pissed tired i forgot my lines. So yeah the most recent event was yesterday. I slept at 4am the previous night. So after our movie screening, i went home. Did my work and tried to sleep my ass off but she had to message me this 'Don't lie to God' thing. And what happens next is a no brainer. I slept at 5am that night.
Okay that's about it. I think. Sleepless nights.
.: ZzzinG :.
What period of time can be considered long? 1 month? 1 year? 10 years? It all depends on the scenario that is given to us. But let's put it in a friend's context. What period of time can we safely assume that we know the person well enough to judge and also predict their actions.
For me, i've known her long enough to say im her friend she can confide in if shes pissed at anything (which i think is almost everything) and someone she can crap with when shes bored. Someone she can talk to and someone she can hang out with. Someone who would make a bad boyfriend cause we always fight and argue about everything and anything, someone she can call a buddy.
Time runs, no it doesnt crawl anymore, it runs, okay maybe not run, it dashes. So time dashes pass us and we go along with it. People change. Things change. Environment changes. Name me something that doesn't. I've been bsy with my own school life and my own social life. She's busy with god knows what and i don't think she likes the idea of hanging around me no more. Endless assumptions people make and teases that she get from me and them.
So now its my cue. Follow the script and leave. Its time for me to say goodbye. I've had it up to the brim of patience. No im not mad and neither am i pissed. This is for your sake. I hope you like it.
.: tHiS iS i CanT StaNd yOU :.
Didn't go school today cause i was pissed tired. I wanted to go but then again...
In grandma's house now..
Im missing something in life..
I don't know what..
.: Hmm :.
It's that time of the month again (no i do not suffer that monthly ordeals that women all around the world face) when you feel like as though everything is against you and the odds of you ever moving forward is...nil?
So here i am trying to figure out how to sound pitiful but at the same time trying to keep the tone up and lively so it won't look like an 'emo' entry. Its more of a complaint than a thought, but than again, who am i really complaining to?
I used to have friends who i could really complaint to. Then i got really busy with my own stuff and my friends.. they just dissapeared. Of course not magically but I lost them half way through my struggle to survive. Okay now it sounds like as though i took the line from some 'survivor' series. Outwit, outplay, outlast? Was it like that?
To those of you who haven't heard from me for a long time, hey guys, i'm back. Still in one piece though i wished i could clone myself and let a few more idiots run around freely entertaining everyone. I was never dead, still alive and kicking, never did forget, still young though i kinda forgot a few names now and then, and of course still the old Hafez who never fails to be lame. Okay, i hate that last line but well i guess it's partly true.
.: SoRRy WheRe iS tHe ExIt :.
After 2 months of endless boring, tiring, bitching, messed up, playful, unfocused rehearsals, we finally performed our 1st and last show at the Esplanade. The experience? Speechless. It felt really good to perform there. The atmosphere was good and the audience was intelectual enough to get the 'moments' (but i still think Redhill Blues, my previous 1st public performance, was more better)
The energy was there, the audience were laughing (at moments we didn't expect) and overall i admit i could have put up a better show but still, it was good enough to put in my history books (that is if i have one) This is our second last performance. Our last performance will be at our vey own campus which will be next week, Friday, 21st July 2006. Its free for all so do come if you are interested. Im not so sure of the timing and venue but look around. Its for the opening of the RP arts festival thing.
This will be my last production in Drama.Republic. But definately not my last performance for RP. Since i've entered RP, i've done hmm lets go in order..
1. Redhill Blues (my first and my favourite)
2. The Prince's Groom (Its about this Gay prince) X2
3. Romeo and Juliet (I wouldn't want to count this in but hmm...)
4. Over the wall (the recent play in the Esplanade)
For other stuffs, it would be..
1. SNAP (Final year project for Adam)
2. White (Project Pilot)
3. Channel U 'UNCUT' (Last minute cameraman for that)
I think that's about all the production so far i can remember. There are a few more like the one i did for MCG (Malay Cultural Group) and alot more for Ethnic Drums (Now known as Percussion Ensemble) NLB opening, some festival in RP, National Day, many more...
I have my own reasons for leaving Drama.Republic. One of the many is that i want to take a long break from it. Of course it's the passion that drives me to do it but i want to try something else. Somethinng new. Something i've never done before.
After this whole thing, i'll be more focused to bring my babies from Percussion Ensemble up and also do my part for MCG cause i promised someone in there that i'll do my best to try to support them in anyway I can. I've got a few more projects ahead of me some in school and outside so yeah i guess i'll take a break for a week than start hitting my notebook to take down dates for upcoming events. Now let's see.. i've got the cleaners documentary..Canon DV fest...PP.....
.: i'LL DeFiNaTeLy MiSS YoU GuYS a MiLLiOn :.
Seriously, I lost track of time. So many things have been happening and happened, i do not wish to go into minor details. Let's just put it as i'm really very tired and that i enjoyed my day today though i was deprived from sleep thanks to my dear Natasha for waking me up in the morning just to tell me she can't sleep.
We had our technical run run today at the Esplanade. The space there is not as 'homely' as it is at the Substation but as the lights got up, i just felt nervous and cold all of a sudden. I kind of screwed up my lines during a dry run and that made stares. Damn, i need to focus. I'll spoil the opening if i don't.
We went to BayBeats after the technical run. The Drama gang went as a group to just slack around and in a way destress. The performances were really good. The first gig was from this guy from Norway who played really mellow vertical horizon like voice songs, solo. The second band was the teachers band cause surprisingly all the band mates are teachers. And this is the highlight of the night. The last band that came on was Tiramisu. A name i wont forget.
The singer, wore a really funny costume. HE also wore high heals. Really eccentric band but they were really cool. A performance i would not forget for life. He had so many energy in him i felt insulted in a way cause im so young but his energy level is so high i dont think i can reach that level!
The last song they sang was called testicle nation. The one word i remembered clearly was 'bopleah' if thats how you spell it. Damn i like that band. Anyone got their MP3?
.: WHatS My ChanCe :.
Yes i am single. Ive been single for a year already. Ive been single since i entered RP. Okay maybe two weeks after i entered RP so yeah do the math and see how long i've been single. Am i looking for anyone? The answer is no. Am i seeing anyone? Yet again an obvious answer. Am i eyeing anyone? And again the answer is yes. Yes as in the answer here is the same as the answer before.
So don't come up and say i saw you with you girlfriend the other day cause i don't have one though i feel sometimes i have someone but its just that shes mine but not mine. Come on, you should know what i mean. But aniwaes, i've got forms for you all to fil up, so yeah do fill it up.
1. Your Name?
2. Age?
3. Just leave me your MSN email address if you think you're pretty but if you think otherwise just leave me a number and i'll call you up really soon.
Shit. that won't work. Let's try another one
1. Name?
2. Age?
3. Email address and number for reference and enquiries if any.
Ah. thats more like it
.: HoLd oN :.
If you're wondering what strucked me to do this entry, well the answer is simple, people just assume. So let's do each other a favour and have this entry as a guide for you idiots so you don't an ASS out of U and ME. Come back often and use this guide.
A - Atrocious. Amazingly, i got an A2 for my O' Levels English language. But i speak like as though i had a C5. Talk about 'Mat' influence.
B - Blush. If you ever need me to shut up than i suggest you try to make me blush cause i blush alot. Stop it will ya.
C - Cute. No im not saying i'm cute. I like girls who are cute. The more prefered choice. Ah.. she's cute.
D - Disaster. Put me with my friends and there you have it. Make the people wonder which school are we from, RP or MINDS.
E - Easygoing. Im easy to mingle with but please don't make me angry.
F - Fickle minded. Im worse than a girl who goes shopping with her mum. Sorry about that cause i like the best. Oops
G - Girlfriend. I don't anyone 'special' in mind now cause i'm spoilt for choices and no one wants me. But im still single and mingling.
H - Habit. I have this habit of taking everything so lightly even though it calls to be serious. Playful by nature.
I - Idiot. The girls call me this all the time. It's either they lack vocabulary words or they don't know what else to call me. Be creative.
J - Joker. The well known joker in my schooling years cause i make fun of people. Erm.
K - Kid. Im still young at heart. I love kids and i love toys. Still imaginative.
L - Lame. Sometimes intelectual jokes don't cater to the masses so i guess we need to be lame at times.
M - Malas. The malay word of for lazy. Yes i am lazy when it comes to work i don't want to do.
N - Neutral. I hate fights so i tend to be neutral if two groups of people are fighting.
O - Open minded. Im very laid back about this.
P - Playful. There was this time my director was angry with me cause i'm too playful on stage.
Q - Queer. Weird? No just eccentric.
R - Rumours. I don't mind you talking about me but don't let me find out that about it.
S - Surprise. Full of surprises. Too much people think im mad.
T - Thoughful. I'm not that bad till i forget my friends but i'm only thoughtful towards people i'm close to.
U - Understanding. A very egoistic person. So don't pick an argument with me.
V - Verbal abuse. I like to fight using words than actions cause i'm mean when it comes to 'suaning' people
W - Weight. I think i need to put on a little more weight horizontally.
X - x-ray. I''ve never done an x-ray before thinking that i have a broken backbone but it came out as a muscle strain.
Y - Yes man. When it comes to getting back at people.
Z - Zebra crossing. There was this time i almost got hit by a car at the zebra crossing while i was on my bicycle. My near death experience
Current addiction, Angels and Airwaves - The Adventure. Cool song, cool people, cool music genre, totally cool. Their quite new in the scene except the singer in it. If you listen to it, it's distinctly the guy from Blink 182. Unless of course you've never heard of them, wonder why are you're on earth in the first place.
Sleepy now. Dreamland is waiting. I'm actually swaying while doing this. Damn. Anyways thought I let you see this. I found it lying around my laptop.
.: I caN'T LiVe :.
Let's sum this up really fast.
Saturday - Work, McCafe, Party, Home, Sleep
Sunday - Classes, Shopping, Work, School, Soccer Finals, Drums, School Forum, Sleep
Monday - Need i go on...
Im not tired, neither am i sleepy. I'm just sick. Get that right. There's a difference in the words used. No mood to do any blogging for now. Pissed off. Im so going get back at her!
.: iM LuCky i HaVe a FaMiLy :.
Fatigue will be the in word for now. So no more 'tak tahu sangat ah Baby' or 'heavy'. It's 'fatigue balls'. Sounds a little lame but well i guess it's true. Didn't update yesterday cause i actually slept in front of my laptop while doing the name and equipment list for Sunday's performance in school.
Went to work late as usual. It's really not on purpose cause i went to finish what i started. This goes to the bitch who bitched about me the other day about my priorities. Aherm let me make this short and sweet.
" You're a bloody newcomer in the family and you think you can take over us just like that. Well for your information, we just don't like your presence. It gives us the creeps whenever you're around. And talking about prioritise, please, you as an advisor of the IG should well bloody know that the performance is in 2 days time, and as a leader, i should and must be able to settle must stuff in an orderly manner so as to show my members a good example. Im not showing off or anything but if i don't show my babies how to organize stuff, who would want to follow? End of discussion"
Back to reality. Went to town to meet up Stefanie, Andrew ( stef's friend who i kept calling Albert), Natasha, Gurmit and Sean. We were there to talk about an upcoming project for the open category in Canon Dv Fest if that's what it is called. Well everything was smooth, accept the occasional sugar rushes from my darling. No more caffeine for her! I slept during the 'meeting' cause i was really really tired. We ended around 9.20 pm and headed off to Ekka's house to celebrate Jo's party.
Nice house he has there. Think i'm gonna hit the steam room with Gurmit one day when we pop in town someday. Had fun of course. Lucky i bought Natasha and Gurmit along or i'll probably be eating and talking alone by the pool all by myself.
oh yeah, thought i shared with you all this picture i did during Film class. Was really bored. Not my personal best but still..its the process.. (taken straight by facilitators in RP). Just in case you're reading this Ika. Sorry i haven't edited your pictures. Been busy and also 'inspirationaless' if there's such a word. I'll try to come up with something soon.
And Alynn Baby, please do take care Baby. Aper aper you can message me cause i'll be hardly online for the next few days. Take care. Many many love.
.: CoMMiteD To My LiFeStyLe ThaT iS :.
So yeah, i've got to admit i'm getting more and more forgetful by the day. Maybe it's due to lack of sleep? I'm not so sure myself. Any idea what kind of scientifically proven theory out there that proofs that lack of sleep causes amnesia? I've got to Google this.
Went out with my 'wife' today. It's been a really long time since i went out with her. Really really long time. I've been always busy in school till late, and going out with her after that is really not in the option cause i'll be so flushed, i don't even have the energy to write my RJ.
So after years (okay maybe not years, months that is), we finally went out together and i did enjoy myself. We hogged the road together like we always used to and she was really fast. It was a short outing, just to get my adrenaline up and running, but it was still worth the trip. I've got to do something about her brakes and maybe change her tires... Oh! I forgot to say that my 'wife' is actually my bicycle!
.: Do YoU FeeL tHe SaMe :.
I saw my ex girlfriend today on the train on the way to school after work in the afternoon. She was really shocked to see me. Okay not shocked actually, she turned pale! Alright fine, am i that shocking? But anyways i didn't talk to her cause firstly i was really tired and secondly she was with her friends who i know but i forgot their names so it would be really weird if i were to say "hi and yeah your name is..."
I realised, okay i know, i really suck at names. I'll know your name for like a year or maybe two but i'll forget it after that. No, it's not cause you're insignificant, it's just that i'm really forgetful when it comes to names. Ever once, i was telling my friend about my ex girlfriend and i forgot what her name was! I was so pissed i had to call my ex school mate to tell me her name!
There were alot of incidents when i met friends outside in public and i'm clueless of what their names are. So you can imagine how i talk to them "eh ya, so how's your school. Eh ya, how's your brother doing? eh ya, can i have your number? Please type in your name so i'll know what to call you in my phonebook"
Just for the record, people close to me, will not be forgotten of course. Well i hope that is. Just remind me to remind myself that you're my friend and that i'm suppose to remember you in the future.
Okay and yes! i lost to a girl in the ultimate redbull challenge! Shoot! My winning streak and i lost to a girl who came in only for the first time tonight. Just in case you all are wondering what this Redbull challenge is, its about seeing who can drink a can of Redbull, and finish it the fastest. Easy right? I think i clocked in about 9 seconds the other time. If she won me, it must have been 8 seconds! You all may think it's cool but i swear its not. The after effect of the Redbull is strong. Trust me. You don't want to try me.
Oh and just to add on, Natasha is not my girlfriend lah. I come work and Fadilah is my girlfriend. When im in Drama, Natasha is my girlfriend. When i'm with Fee Faan, Aisyah is my girlfriend. When im with Percussion Ensemble, Fadila is my girlfriend. When im doing my own business outside, Huda is my girlfriend. You all got to finalize who you want me to be with! Don't jump to conclusion about my status. I'm still single though sometimes i think i'm already attached. Attached to my workload that is.
And please, is there a day i can sit and relax. I'm tired. Really am. Aisyah... Can we go out next week.. Please.. Need a break.. i'll get you that ring you wanted the other day! Woohoo!
.: HeR EyeS ArE BroWn :.
Correct me if i'm wrong, but i've been really too nice to people. Okay well maybe too some people but generally i'm still a nice guy. Aww come on, sometimes a little self praising wont hurt. But seriously, i think people take advantage of you if you're nice. Well i do. So don't bloody dare admit you don't do it cause humans are by nature, abusive in that sense.
So here i go. Yes people, i'm the only bitch you all will hate at the end of the day. I swear the drama rehearsals just now sounded and looked more like a boot camp then a rehearsal. I mean, come on people, we are nearing. When its time to have fun, let's all have fun together. But if people are still lagging behind, we got to do this as a team and bring him on our track then we can have more fun. Yes i am very playful on stage and definately off stage but at times like this, we have to stay focus.
So i went on shouting and screaming at them. I don't like being too authorative honestly cause i hate authority myself. So the easiest way to get out of this mess is just to cooperate. Its really simple. Tell yourself 'what the hell what the hell what the hell...' you will pull through.
I've got work to go to tomorow. I don't know what to write anymore. I'm just plain tired. Flushed would be the word here. And im crapping with Natasha online. Wow.. what's next?!
.: Erm No :.
Once in awhile, i'll pop in a lyric in my blog entry if i think it's cool. This time its from Tsunami Bomb. If you want the song just tell me. I'll give it to you.
"Say It If You Mean It"
Don't walk on eggshells for me
I'm not as fragile as you think
Stop making your words fancy
Why say "I don't know"
When you actually do?
Just tell me what you really mean
Really mean
When we're alone
Why can't you tell the truth?
When we're alone, you know what you should do
Avoid reality
As you dig yourself a hole
Excuses are pathetic
Why say "I apologize"
When you don't regret a thing
Just tell me what you really mean
Really mean
You say these words
Why should I put up with lies?
You say these words when you know that they are untrue
Mean what you say cause no one will take the blame
Mean those words; the responsibility's yours After years, okay maybe not years but it's been a long time since i entered Johore with my parents, I was finally in our neigbourhood country. Used to be our weekly rituals of going there but after work commitments, we stopped going in.
So we ate at Pizza Hut. I'll list out what we ate. We ordered Meal 3 which consist of 1 large Super Supreme Pizza, 1 Medium Hawaiin Supreme Pizza, 6 Soup of the Day, 8 breadsticks if that's what's it called, 1 pitcher of Pepsi, 6 single scoop ice cream, 1 garden Salad add on... and i think that's about it. But the aftermath is as expected.. very very full.
We started walking around the mall. But my eyes were giving in. I felt sleepy and yes you guessed it right, almost maybe' i actually slept at the mall on this chair with my dad!
.: SuDDeNLy No MooD To CoNtiNuE THiS EnTrY :.
Firstly, Aisyah, I'm not going to do that '6 weird things about yourself after you've been tagged' thing cause I'm already weird by nature. So why bother doing it? Hehe. For those who want to do it, go visit her blog and do it. Its under 'ENCORE' and she's Aisyah Sayang. And no, i'm not attached to her mum! I swear! Aisyah tell her i'm not attached to you!
Okay. I know you 'ALL' like to read blogs then make fun of it right? So this is dedicated to you. Yes you, the beautiful people of Delifrance lah. Who else right? Must let everybody read it okay cause i know the first person to read this will be Fadilah. Yes ah Baby. Correct not?
I don't like Fadilah okay. She's already got a boyfriend. Later her boyfriend come find me how? She never tell you all that's why you all don't know. And later you tell Auntie Lilian ah, please lah enough already. Tired you know to blush the whole day. And AB, aiyoh takleh angkat lah always Dila here Dila there. Ask you repeat you say nothing. And Kakak, yelah after so long never work with you sengaje kan leave me alone. Takper, i remember. I kan saperrrr... Haha
Oh yeah, just for the record, this Fadilah here is not the Fadila from Percussion Ensemble. Shes in year two this year in SAS. Yeah same school but different year of study and definately different school (STA and SAS). But both cute lah. Eh say cute also wrong ah?
Went to work in the afternoon. Met Zul after work and hanged around Jurong Point. One topic we were talking about strucked me to do this entry. 'Why don't we have girlfriends?' I won't tell you his answer of cause. You want, you ask him yourself, but my answer will be easy. Cause i want freedom. I was close to having one but she didn't like the whole idea of 'sharing' me so yeah i guess i'm back to square one. I think i'm going to do a little quiz for girls to see if they suit me. Hmm.. maybe.... it could be
Question number
1059. Do you believe in cloning
.: PosSiBLe if You bELieVe :.
