Was at work when a couple came in. Tante Lela told me that the girl had asked for a reservation cause she wanted to celebrate her boyfriend's birthday. (I'm assuming he was her boyfriend and not husband cause they were pretty young. But then again, my friend got married when he was 18) So while their food was being cooked, the girl gave him this small little sketch book with colourful words written in it. Okay, fine. I was being a busy body at that point of time but I had a clear view while I was serving the food and looking at the gift was pretty inevitable. Wasn't my fault the guy was holding it up so high for everyone to see.
They looked really sweet together and the girl was in tears. I have no idea why but she was wiping it off her cheek while they were reading something off the laptop. The food which was already been served to them 10 minutes after they came turned cold I think cause they were practically talking and talking like as though the food was never there to begin with. I have to admit that I felt a little jealous. Not cause I can't get the girl but I don't have that significant other for me to pamper.
I miss those days when everyday was a day to try and surprise the other. And each time you see that look on the face, it just makes your day. Its hard to be in a relationship I must admit. I have alot of excuses for not being in one but to name one out of the million, I'm just not ready to settle down yet. But its just nice to pamper someone and be pampered. I have someone who I always pamper now and she pampers me alot but she isn't my significant other that's for sure. She calls me a big baby cause I always want that 'attention' from her.
Okay, think I'll write down my criteria for a wonderful girlfriend. I like girls who have streaks of long brown hair and she must be Eurasian. Err. Okay. That's just a dream. Well basically, I just like someone who understands me well enough to actually predict my next move. I found someone who could actually do that years ago but she was my best friend. She could really read my mind well and she was definitely a good friend to me. I miss her alot that's for sure but something happened between us that kind of jeopardized the whole friendship thing. That's all I can say now. More and I'll probably return back to Emo mode.
I remember one of my ex girlfriends telling me about this.
Appreciate my strength and tolerate my weakness.
Pretty easy to understand, but it meant so much to her. I didn't know she loved me alot to actually tolerate whole heartedly to my nonsense. I regret that's for sure but life has to go on. Maybe I can't count my ex girlfriends with my fingers and maybe I can't count the number of hearts I broke but I can definitely count the number of people who really appreciated me and the number of people that loved me for who I am or was. And out of the many, there was only one who I was willing to give up everything for.... but she will never know how I felt...
.: SweeT :.
