Was out with mum and siblings in the afternoon. The initial idea was to head out and just catch some fresh air but I ended up shopping for things I don't really 'need'. Well, there's two stuff which is 'want' and 'need' so what I bought for myself was a 'want' thing. Either ways, I betrayed my shopping buddy. Really sorry Aisyah but I promise we will go out shopping again when I get my pay, and that happens to be err.. in a months time?
The time is pretty early (well technically cause its already way pass my bed time) Speaking of which, I do have this 'doink' mode which will make me go really 'doink'. Doink is this word that I sort of created a year back. Remember Banana in Pyjamas? Well, you know each time they bump into each other and there's this sound effect? Well, that's the sound that made me come up with this word. Well, I've heard words like Toink (I think that was from Aisyah) and Zoink but Doink sounds pretty nice to associate with being 'half dead'. I'm always crazier after midnight so go figure what rubbish I can come up with. If if you think that's crazy, wait till you hear me speak after 2 am. I think Natasha has got a little of the medicine cause she always wakes me up at the wrong time.
There was once when we were sleeping over at Ekkawat's place when she woke me up just to say she couldn't sleep. It was 3 in the morning I think. She woke me up again during drama camp and I ended up sleeping in the middle of the forum with an open umbrella covering my face but made it more significant that someone was there. There were a few more times when she woke me up from sleep but there's just too many to start recalling. I do hope when we are sleeping over at Shaun's house it will be a smooth ride cause I'll be having a performance the next day. Smacks head!
2007 will be a really sweet year for me. I'm going to enter year 3 and I'm still single! Whoa! That's a record. I've never been single for so long. Err. Yah I guess. I'm going to start being serious with work and when I say serious I mean seriously doing some beneficial work. Will be passing the baton to Fadilah who will be leading the Babies. I'll have to let them go and yes I will do that. Was talking to me friend the other day about my disappearing acts. She said that I was capable of doing that and I know damn well that I can. I'll probably do the same to the babies cause goodbyes are hard. That's why I never liked saying goodbyes. Its easier to just leave like that. That's what I did to Drama. But I'll pop by once in awhile to say hi to everyone and to make sure that I get all the hot news. Yes, I do keep track of what people do and what's happening inside so I don't loose them but I don't have to tell you I'm keeping an eye on you or you'll think I'm stalking when in fact I'm just showing my concern indirectly.
I'll be moving on to do some Malay Drama. Each year I take on something new and this time I'm picking what I think will be the most challenging of all. I really suck at my own Mother Tongue and I think my ex school teachers will definitely agree to that. I won't say I'm good at acting cause I still do shake in front of crowds but I enjoy entertaining. That's the proper word to use. Its nice to see people smile when you perform. Makes me happy that way. So what I have to do know is go back to my roots and try to revive that 'Malay-ness' in me. I think I lost it somewhere along the way. I never did really have many Malay friends back that cause people thought I was more on the 'Step London' kind. What? I can't help it if I'm better in the English language. It was pretty easy to score A2 back then. And English was the only A i got.
I think I've just realised that I can get really jealous easily. I don't really know why but it sucks to feel that way. I don't really know why cause I know I don't and should not have anything to do with the person so why am I feeling this way. People say 'oh cause you like her'. As a friend yes. More than that, I'll have to think about it. I've been through hell and back and I think this will never work out well. She's always busy with stuff and I don't really know her that well to say 'oh yeah, she will be doing this on that day'. Get what I mean? I don't really go for things like 'you two look great together' kind of things cause seriously, though how good you may be for each other, doesn't mean it will last. Well take Brad Pitt for example. At the end of the day, he got a hotter chick! Err, kind of random but get the drift. Its all about the loveeeee.. Yeah right. Whoever came up with that?
I'm starting to type down stuff randomly cause I don't really know what to talk about. Each day I think of something 'creative' to talk about cause I can't be going on telling people about my own laundry. So I try to come up with different kinds of stuff. If not daily, weekly. Somehow I feel like as though I've told you this before. Nevermind, I'll tell you again about my great master plan. But besides the point of blogging and what people blog about, I came to realised that guys hardly blog. I got a few who blog on a daily basis but its rare to see a community of them who keep it up. Does that mean that guys can't have their little 'Dear Diary' segment? Beats me. The only reason I came up to blog was because I wanted to remind myself about events worth remembering. I'm starting to forget names and mix up events and dates that sometimes I resort to stupid stuff just to make myself remember stuff.
And speaking of blogging. I really have no idea who the hell is reading my blog. See, the numbers are increasing, not really at a fast rate but good enough to show that there are a handful of people take the time to read crap of their screen. See, I don't mind you reading cause if we are talking about privacy, well, blogs aren't exactly the place to talk about your mum spanking you. What I'm worried about is that somehow, I may offend you in a way or another but then again, I don't really mention names when I'm indirectly cursing you. Oh well, go on reading than. At least I know I have people patronizing it so I have things to talk about and people to gossip about.
Enough nonsense now cause everything is pretty messed up now. I need a little rest after all that walking. And yeah, I'm saying Goodbye... to you soon so if you could do me a favour, spend a little time with me.
.: iTs nOt LikE I asKeD foR a YeaR :.
