Looking at my surroundings, I feel blessed that I have choosen not to have what they love. I feel blessed that I have been kept locked inside even though I am against it. There were signs that I had received since the day I decided to choose the shortcut but i decided not to acknowledge this signs. I choose to neglect them and did what I wanted. Now that I am lost and stuck, there is nothing out there to help mi get up and start running again. The signs come and go but they are now merely signs and no longer roadmaps anymore. I regretted not cherishing them. I have lost an essential item in life. Will I have to go on like this forever? Now that the signs have appeared again, I’ve decided to get back at it. I’m trying to start where I left behind. I have decided to use them for my own benefit. I am after all useless without it so why not abuse what I have. At least I have something to turn to when I am in this situation. This signs that I am talking about are not the usual signs we see in our everyday lives. Its not the normal ‘I see you then I’ll make an assumption’ kind of signs. Sci-fi it is not. It’s the real deal. It’s there but only certain people can analyze it. Only certain people will pick it up. For me, I know what it is. Its there, but its just unexplainable.
Old memories came back to haunt me. Happy moments we used to share, which were then tarnished by a dissapering act and a cowardly decision. People think and forget about it in an instant. For me, i can't erase what has been done. Reason being i can't find that particular function inside to trigger such an action of deleting unused memories. It comes back just when everything is running smooth. It brings you down to your knees. It makes you weak inside.
I have just realised how much i need you. How much i care. How much i wanna proof that i can make it through. So now what have i done to deserve this? Let's get some items off the shelf. Confusion mixed with anger plus a little hatred combined in love... You get my thoughts...
.: aLL i See INSiDe yOu aRe mY MiStaKeS:.