I had this bestfriend back in my secondary school days. Her name is Rachel. Now let me change that 'had' in the first line to 'have' cause i've jst realised that good things in life cannot be replaced. So i thought, when i entered RP, new life, new friends, new best friend, i told myself, i haven't found anyone who could atually replace her.
It's strange, my relationship with Rachel. I never had this 'extra' feelings for her. She was really a friend to me. Someone i could turn to. Someone there when i'm bored. We used to have really long conversations on the phone back then. And the best part is she's my classmate for two years and makes me wonder isn't 8 hours a day talking face to face not enough. Well the answer was no obviously.
I think we became really shaky near the end of our secondary school life. It became worse after we officially left each other. No more late nights. No more 'hey i want to complaint to you' No more best friend. I was busy with school and she was busy with work. I couldn't care less about my old friends and neither did they. She called me once in awhile to say hi but i'll always break my promise to call her back.
So i guess today's conversation on the phone really changed the way it was. She misses me alot and so do i. Even when i was attached back then (she always had something agaisnt my girlfriends) i will always go back to her for comfort. I'll be meeting her soon afer almost a year without her around. ABout replacing her. no, i havent found anyone to replace her. Someone close to replacing her yes but no one who could officially replace her. She is after all, my 'real' other half. No, not my significant other, shes like my alter ego other half if that's the correct term for it.
Speaking of which, i think its about time for me to settle down. Get myself a partner. My expectations of a good near perfect grilfriend is higher now. Compared to my old 'anything' goes lifestyle. So you thought i was bad, well, i was worse back then. What i really want from a girl...
1. Understanding
2. be there for me when i need her
3. Accept me for who i am
4. Be able to take my schedules cause its really packed
5. Love me
I remembered this line from my ex girlfriend. Thought i share it with all. 'Appreciate my strong points and tolerate my weak points' Though it may sound not much to some, for me it made me feel bad cause the line was refering to me. So yeah, she tolerated me alot and in a way i abused that love. To all my ex girlfriends (chey macam banyak) i would like to apologize for breaking your hearts (if i ever did) and for all the nonsense that you had to put up with. And for all the girls that ditched me, well... i also don't know what to say.. Enjoy yourself lah eh
.: I HaD EveRytHinG :.
