The last time I felt like as though I had a chance at something was earlier in the year when life was as carefree as doves in the sky. For God's sake, I sound like a wuss when I type down those lines, but anyways, besides the point that my default template lines are limited, I'm having that 'feeling' again. Nothing to do with work that's for sure. Just that 'thing' that's going on. Ah, you wouldn't understand even if I told you. That was really random, so forget you ever read that. Sheesh.
School, or might I say class, was fun today. The class was significantly broken into two groups, emo gang and comic relief gang. I won't go into details about how class was cause it was just to funny and I don't know where to begin, but it still rocks my balls. Oh yeah, that line, 'rocks my balls' sounded kind of wrong, in fact very wrong, when I told it to my friend, who so happens to be a guy. Took back my words after realising how messed up that line was.
Went to work after school today. Was at Larissa cafe. Got quite pissed off with my manager's mum cause she scolded me for no apparent reason. The toaster got busted the other day, due to some bread which got stuck, causing the whole shop to experience 10 minutes of 'not paying bill' moment. So she said I was at fault cause I taught them how to toast garlic bread with the garlic on it first, toast it then serve compared to toast bread, spread the garlic then serve. Get what I mean? Nevermind how it's served but yeah, Mas Taufiq gave me that 'I told you she's one angry woman' look. I kept quiet cause talking back wouldn't help much. She's indonesian and I'm Singaporean. Language is one the barriers we have around in the cafe. Though I seem to understand what they are saying but I only understand 40%, no make that 30% of what they are trying to say. Shows how much I actually pay attention to their complicated Indonesian conversation. Not that I'm being an ass here but hey, I got a C5 for malay. What you expect me to do?
On the way back home, I suddenly thought of 'her'. No, not 'her', the other 'her'. There were loads of 'what if' questions going through my head. I gave up the idea of thinking any longer cause the 'what if' questions seem to have more negative than positive answers. Oh well, we will let time decide how we will move on from step 1. Well, step 1 is get to know your target well. I sound like a pervert more than a guy who wants to woo a girl. But wait, ain't all guys sound like that when they want to woo someone? Right? No? Don't try to get out of this. Well, I'm not saying it directly to anyone now am I. I'm saying it in general. Ah, that famous 'in general' line. Remember those lines from my facilitator who taught me back in year 1. He always uses that 'in general' line to 'indirectly' tell me stuff. I think of all the people I've put down, he is one facilitator I can never challenge with.
I'm notorious for challenging authority. Not that I'm proud of it but if I think you're doing it the worng way, I'll have to voice out my opinion. Right? I still remember this time when I actually scolded this facilitator back in year one cause she taught us in a completely different style compared to our previous facilitator. ANd you knwo what was the best part, it was only her first day teaching in the school. I pity her, now, but yeah it has passed. News of it became pretty hot, made my previous facilitator come back to look for me to say "give her a chance will you"
I think I'm heading to bed now to get some much needed rest. I think I've made up my mind. I'll be going back to drama soon. Pretty soon. I got invited back to direct a play. Well, maybe I won't be performing at TRCC, which was my last request before I left the school, but directing this small play would probably bring me closer to making the bond between the drama members and me close again. It's nice to know that people still want you around and that you still want to do what you like to do. Well, like I promised the devil aka Mr Ganesh that I'll help bring up Percussion Ensemble, I think I've done enough to make it a little more stable compared to years before me. I'll probably leave after I find someone to replace me. It's time to go back to what I love most.. What you expect? I've been doing that for 6 years!!
.: it's WriTTeN aLL OveR tHe FaCE :.
