Don't bother about my previous entry. It's a little messed up cause I did that while I was in my 'doink-iest' moment of the night. Explains the structure of the entry. I think I should not talk to people online if I'm a 'high' cause it tends to become more of a 'let me tell you the truth' session then the usual daily chit chat sessions. That my friend, is dangerous especially if you're talking to someone you've known for quite some time.
I came in to work 2 hours early cause I wanted to make it up to Fadila in a way. She was working with Dora in the morning and I know how it feels to work with her. No offence of course, I'm not saying she's bad or anything, but an extra pair of hands won't harm. AB, the main guy, has went off to Thailand for a well deserved holiday.
On the way to work, I suddenly remembered Mummy. The previous Mummy that is. I remembered Lala. I do miss her as a friend of course, and she too can crap a lot but we did something that made me go 'that's what I'm looking for, motivation'. Don't go jumping the lagwagon now, we did nothing 'illegal', but what we did was rather special.
We both smoked, but well I smoke more than she does. So we wanted to quit the drug so I came up with this idea to make a logbook for both of us and also she became my 'saving bank'. At the end of each day, we both have to pay $1 into this bank that she kept and record down the number of sticks we smoked for the day. It was all based on trust and we always told each other the truth. The catch? The person who smoked the least after a month gets to keep the money! We did collect to a decent amount but after awhile, we decided too take out the money due to some personal problems.
I still have the logbook in my laptop...She was my motivation to stop, or maybe it was the money. But either ways, I knew there was a reason for it. There was motivation. I don't see any motivation now. Maybe I did while on the way to work and maybe a little here and there. I need more. I need a reason to do something. But either ways, who cares...
Anyways, someone made me laugh to myself while I was at work. This is what she messaged me.
Shall try my best love. Peluk and cium banyak banyak ya. Sweet dreamsI just found it funny especially coming from her. Okay sorry, a little 'doink' now...I'll leave you with pictures from my workplace. I was bored... I'm starting to love camera phones.
They should change it to staff tips...
30? Car? Wonder where's the kid who left this...
Close shop already...
.: ChaSiNg tHe DreaM :.
