"I've been checking your attendance, you better come for classes or I will close you guys down"
Though I
like the extra
'attention', this
sounds serious. And it came from the
assitant director. Whoa! I feel wanted, but in the wrong way. Amy Khoo walked past me while I was at the agora and tapped my shoulder.
"Did you go for class?" You better make sure you go for class"
Okay so fine, people have been
secretly 'checking' me out but in a way I feel like as though I've committed the
biggest sin in the world. No offence, I do like the 'attention' you're giving but it makes me
more stressful in a way. It's like you're expecting something from me.
"People are getting angry at you"
This came from someone else but yeah it made me think twice about the whole idea of going to Thailand. Now I really
feel bad. I think it's time for me to settle down. Time for me to get
serious. Time for me to get attached to commitment, and that is time management and priorities. It's time for Hafez to step back into the 'working world' and do proper work. Err, I've always been a slacker!
Emails after emails, dead lines after deadlines. Performances after every good performance. Do I need a break? More like do the Babies need a break. I feel bad for holding them back after school so late and making them play for every invitation we get. It's my call. It has always been my call.
"Sometimes you must learn to say no"
Yes, I think that's what we shoud do. We should learn to say no. I should
start to reject people's invitation. It's just too much for me and the Babies. I pity them. They are just too 'wanted'! Say
No Hafez, Say
No. Learn. It's simple, just say
No, you know you can't accept the pressure. You know you can never manage. You know you're always bad at this is. Who do you want to prove it to? Is it worth it? You suck at this, admit it. Well ya, it's true, I suck at this. I suck at management. It's time to leave. Like for good. It's time for you to come back down to Earth.
"Personal problems? Family problems? Any problems"
I have
too many to mention. I rather you just assume what ever you want to.
I'm tired. I really am. I'm not tired of work. Never was, I'm tired about the way I'm living my own life. I need to go back to where I left my past and get it back on track. I'm missing something. Something really important. I'm missing
my family....: SuFFocaTiNg UnDer WorDs oF SoRRow :.
