Put here anything you want like a disclaimer, welcome message, anything. Even a counter.

Didn't go to school today. Well, I was just plain tired/sleepy to even get up for school. Ended up going to Iftar with Zul and gang. Played pool at Jurong Point after that.

See.. I'm very sleepy now, explains why I can't really/don't want to blog now. Understand, understood.

: MoRe DaYs tO CoMe :.



I'm not being emotional or anything but my point is that I care. My opinion, people (I'm not talking about family here) who show that they care alot about you actually are not 100% genuine. People who are the ones that show no interest about you but in fact know about what you're doing in life are the people who care more (I'm not talking about stalker here either) But again, this is my opinion, though people have different views and definitely become defensive on some of the points, again may I remind you that this are my views. It's not necessarily wrong and neither can it be the perfect answer. So yeah, go figure.

I was surfing the net in school and came upon this picture...



Cool don't you think so? Well, he's Jade, the guitarist from AFI (currently my favorite band) Well, I'm not talking about his face or how good looking he is, well I'm talking about his fashion taste here man. Check it out. Ain't that cool! I've already got a almost similiar top but all I need now is a matching matt black jeans, straight hair, dyed, and last but not least, learn how to play the guitar like him. Go check this out guy, Love like Winter. Trust me, it's cool (to me of course)

Went out to break fast with Zul, Dan and Shirin. Had KFC. Then went down to Kaki 5 cafe/I don't know what at Arab street to play uno while smoking sheesha. I think SKL's cherry menthol has more kick to it but yeah, it's not a daily thing so it's okay. Just thought I share this with you guys. RP's best website.. Click to find out. No virus/porn/whatever nonsense you may think it contains. Click to find out. Trust me. But ONLY for RP students cause you have to log on to VPN supposingly. But you could try. I don't know if other's can access the other options. Go try to find out. Till then.. cheers

.: HeR SMiLe MaKeS Me FeeL LiKe PiNChiNg HeR LiPs :.


Today was the first day of the elective course. My view about it? I was practically half dead with my new slacker friend Hilmi. So we didn't really contribute much to the final presentation, and I couldn't be bothered to try to convince my other two team mates that what they are going to put in is really not what the facilitator wants to see. Trust me, facilitators nowadays don't want to see people beating around the bush.

Let me give you a scenario.. you're sitting at the back of a class and everyone wants to get a grade 'A' from you. Half your mind is concentrated on what the hell your students are presenting, which you already know 6 months ago and the other half is saying "get on with it assholes". So you start swearing and cursing and this student starts 'teaching' you facts. It's 'teaching' you, not telling you he/she understands. Hello, anybody can read off slides but how well do you know your stuff? Don't come presenting facts. Bloody hell show what you know from those facts.

Though class was rather boring, I had my piece of fun chatting with an old friend/ex girlfriend of mine. We were talking about my other ex girlfriend (made me wonder how many ex girlfriends I had) but anyways, so my ex girlfriend is not happy with my other ex girlfriend cause she thinks that my ex girlfriend was the cause of my break up with ex girlfriend. Lost? So was I, initially but when I got to hear/chat about the story, I found out that my ex girlfriend apparently wants to start a club. Not just any club. The 'anti-Hafez' club. How cool is that? You have a club named after you!

Well, you see. Even if you want to start a 'anti-Hafez' club (I can make you the president of the club if you want to) start rallying people to be anti me, or start bitching about how I treated you in the past (like really long ago) go ahead, cause honestly, I'm not going to go "what the hell was that for?! What did I do to you to deserve this" cause you're a waste of time. I mean come on, it happened two years back. So I tried to make it up to you, but no, you 'vowed' not to see me anymore. Vowed to not want to talk/think about me. 'Vowed' to dismiss me from your life. So who was there at your party. Eh hi! It was me, cause why? You invited me of course!

Think I were to put up a list of people who hate me, I think I can make a pretty long list. Well, apparently she's the head of the list, then you can add her...her...her... hmm.. him? her.. her... and the list goes on and on and on an......

Besides the point that she hates me, cause I can't be bothered about who needs extra attention from me, I had to go shopping just now. Sorry eh Aisyah. I really had to. So I bought two new tops, a pair of scooby doo boxers. What? I think they were cool what. Even Vieda said it was cool. Some patch ons for my jacket and.. I think that was about it. Just to find out later at home that the girl gave me the wrong size for my shirt! Shit, now I have to travel all the way to town just to get my shirt changed! Ah. Shit shit shit! Should have doubled checked my bag. Now must waste time to travel there.

I think if I were to go on like this, I wouldn't get my bike license by the end of the year. Shit, I'm in real trouble now. I need a ride, seriously... and yeah.. think I'm going to score on this..

.: LiFe'S GamEs :.


I'm feeling really free this week! So work schedule? Only two working days. CCA schedule? None! I'm feeling really free! Well, it's good and also bad. Good cause I get to spent time with my family (I'm hardly at home) and friends who want to hang out with me. Bad cause I'm not very used to not doing anything, especially during schooling days.

I've just reliased how 'important' it is to attend school, if not, to at least check your school mail. I came to school today not knowing what to expect. Just to open my school mail to realised how much of work I've not done. So may things to settle that I've not done! Hey! Hafez! Hello! Anyone home?!

School? Was okay though I was feeling rather tired for no apparent reason. Can't be due to the fasting month cause I've never been this tired, even without food. Went home early, walked around Causeway Point, hoping to get a new cap, but to find out that Causeway Point is a very boring place to hang out. Met my parents half way in Jurong East and went straight to my Grandma's place to break fast. It's break fast not breakfast, so get your english right.

Okay, I'm feeling a little rich now. Not that I got millions on me but I'll be getting two different pays in two weeks time. Hey! Who wants to go shopping?! Aisyah! I want to go shopping! Well, I don't have my Wednesday shopping buddy anymore cause firstly, I have classes on Wednesdays, and secondly.. Shit! I don't have a secondly. I don't care Aisyah, you better set a day for me! Erm date maybe? Hehe. Chocolates? Eh alamak, after 4 weeks lah.

Oh yeah, I placed this counter on my blog to see the number of people who actually read this blog. Well.. apparently, there is a number of people who read it. That means two things, people are getting bored in their lives or two, you just happen to pop by. Either ways, I'll try to entertain you guys with whatever I have to offer. I've decided not to blog about my life anymore (not) but I think I'm going to start about 'human themes'. Example would be love, the root of all evil, then it could be something more controversial like religion? Oh yeah, I'm so going to jail for this! Well, wish me luck!

.: SaY WhaT YoU WaNt To :.


The blogger is currently sick. He has lots to do but have not done..

He needs her....

.: WaiTiNg :.


It's the first day of the fasting month. My take on it? I can clear 30 days of it. No sweat. Err.. I'll try my best. I've got no excuses not to fast. So I might as well take on this challenge. So my goals for this Ramadan?

1. Complete 30 days of it
2. Not miss any prayers (do the maths.. 5 times a day..35 times a week..)
3. Do my terawih prayers (that's like extra prayers)
4. Complete reading the quran (1 'juz' a day?)
5. Get a girlfriend...?

I was kidding about the last point, but Zul did have a point. Alamak boi, kau faham aku faham lah eh. It has got something to do about Hari Raya. Go figure. I was thinking about it the other day. Not that I'm desperate or anything, neither is it cause of peer pressure (trust me, my friends wouldn't believe if I said I have a girlfriend) but it's time for me to settle down. No more playing around, and thinking of what the hell others are doing. Why waste time caring for someone who only uses you...

So, I've got a new addiction. An addiction to AFI. No, I've not turn gay. I'm addicted to their songs. AFI is like a rock/punk rock/emo rock/ I don't know band. AFI is short for 'A Fire Inside'. Their latest track is 'Miss Murder'. It's been played around MTV so you can't miss it. If you do, then go Google AFI. You'll see what it is. If you still don't know... Go get a rabbit!

Currently listening to...

1. The Leaving song part two
2. Girl's not grey
3. Miss Murder
4. Rabbits are roadkills on RT.37

Two songs from their old album and the other two from their latest album. I just got a hold on to their new album so I'm still sampling the other songs. Want me to review it for you? No problem. Just tell me if you need a song from their album.

Oh yeah, I got the new album from Muse too. So feel free to bug me for their gay rock sound alike songs. (oops) Talented band I must admit... that's about all now. Oh yeah.. just in case you want to see how cool the band is..

http://youtube.com/watch?v=XrpmyacmLZg

.: BreAk NoW :.


I don't usually do this but today is an exception. Time check, 8.31 PM and ticking. I'm feeling sick. I'm always sick. I don't know why but yeah that's it. Didn't go to work today cause I'm having a terrible sore eye. All thanks to my brother. Could barely open my eyes.

I'm in no mood to stare in this space to blog about anything so yeah... bye

.: WhaT :.


Days and hours of lying down low, thinking how long can I stay behind this fragile wall. Time has come to seek a different shelter, a different place to call home. Follow if you have to, lead if you want to. Either ways, I know I'm on my own...

Tears that seem to never end, as I recall what has happened before. Though actors can fake their death and become almost sane in the next minute, seems so genuine that what has dropped to the ground can never be brought back up again...

Someone close is what I need, to break the silence from within. Though at times it feels that loneness is the mother of all solutions, this time it may be more worthless compared to gold. Breaking away from things that are habitual, it becomes a sin to not do it without a reason...

So she left without a word. No more than just a wave to show that she remembered. What has past us can never be returned, to it's owner that created it from the start. Random words come together to form sentences, that mean nothing but merely lines for others. What we see is just words that looks familiar, but words are more powerful than its beholder...

You don't have to understand whatever that is going around you. All you need is to take care of what you need to. And that is your dignity which you can never have back, so pure and priceless compared to any treasure we find in space...

When I left I did acknowledged. I left a note saying that I will come back. As a better person was what I hoped for, but it turned out that the note was left to burn. So I wrote another this time much thicker. With words that could make no sense to those who cannot see through literature. What I meant was I'll be there for you if you ever need me. Who said I'll leave you, just to see you bleed peacefully...

Emotional torn is what I'm not. Stating out stories that seem to have no end. Names are used to tell a difference. Between people who seem to have made an impression. While we try our best to pray for good to take us by, we forget the people that never gave up to try. To try to bring us to where we are, like how the saying goes.. so near, yet so far...

Distance was never an issue to talk about, for I will run a mile to get you to the top. For now I'm busy trying to ease myself, from the scar that you left me while I was in the train. Looking at you will never be the same, as endless thoughts keep running through like mind games. Endless shouts of sorrow to stop the pain, leave mi in darkness while I take what I gain.....

.: iT's CoMiNg BaCk :.


I'm in the mood (sort of) to blog today so I figure I do an extra long 'what the hell is he trying to say' entry today. Well I need space to let something off my chest, why not blog about it?

Left the house early today to head on down to East Coast with the Babies. So just in case you all don't know who the Babies are, they are the members of my IG/CCA/SLA (choose one of the following if you don't know what the hell I'm saying) Percussion Ensemble. I'm not going into details of why I call them Babies and they call me an ass but yeah they are called Babies by default.

I hate long train rides cause I get bored of sitting and waiting for the stupid automated voice to say "Next stop.. your stop" (err yeah) So I looked at the board the other day and they stated that the journey from Boon Lay to Bedok is 47 minutes. Ah yes, 47 minutes. 47 minutes of looking around, analyzing people, especially reactions from others when passengers board the train. Talk about keeping your eyes to yourself.

It was round 10 am plus when I reached. Decided to have a light breakfast at a coffeeshop while we waited for two more Babies to come along. I called Aisyah up. Asking how she was. I feel guilty in a way for not joining Fee Faan, but I guess keeping the Babies together now is way much important than anything. There has to be a unique bond between members of the group in order to have the best out of them. Though we may be the worst players in the world, as long as the group sticks together, I'm happy.

Walked around Bedok cause apparently one more Baby is stuck at home. Maybe I'm a 'westerner' (not that I'm Caucasian but I stay in the west of Singapore, explains the inverted commas) I just don't feel homely in the East. Maybe it was due to the fact that I'm rather new to the area (and to think Singapore was that small) or maybe I just don't like the feel of it. It's just so, wide. Nevermind about that point. But anyways, the Baby who was stuck at home decided to meet us there at East Coast. We spent 2 hours waiting. Rain was one of the reasons, but I guess the whole 'hey let's go enjoy' mood wasn't really there.

So the whole gang? From the ladies, Fadila, Naq and Niza. The gentleman (though I still think we are sick in the head at times) Tim, Aim and Nabil. Did I miss out anyone? It rained quite heavily when we were on the way to East Coast. So we decided to stick indoors. I suggested we played the notorious game of 'spin the handphone' which I created back then with Sean, Ismail and Maddy. The game was kinda boring cause, err I don't know. The Babies are still 'fresh' in their heads. Wait till they see how we Drama kids play the game. Questions like "if you were to stick something up your..." Trust me, we may sound sick, but we don't do sick things. We are just too imaginative, and not forgetting.. creative.

The rain stopped around.. err I wasn't wearing a watch. The gang rented bikes, except for Tim who has his own bike. The plan, we cycle to both ends of East Coast. So we did just that and the outcome? Terrible leg cramps for sure. But, enjoyable. We played tag. Not really tag but Fadila was the one who started hitting people on their shoulder while we rode (like tag, only thing is that you're riding a bike) When I say bike I mean bicycle. Had a few pit stops here and there. Think I'm going to bring Aisyah to this really nice spot at East Coast. That is if I have a bike (now I mean motorbike) cause it's far. In the middle of no where. So how Aisyah? Next year? Two years?

Tim and me were the more 'crazier' ones cause we were practically playing 'need for speed'. He was worst cause he always went off road. Hey bro, they made tracks for us lah. Could see the faces of the Babies. Tired from cycling. Since Tim mentioned something about my 'limitless' energy, think I'll bring it up. Well, I do have a limit that's for sure but how did I ride my bike like as though I have been only cycling for only 10 minutes? Easy. You control the bike. Don't let it control you. See, bikes are like women. If you know how to handle them, they will work for you, if you don't.. err I say you should try on a real woman then see the effects of it.

What I often do before I go on long, not constant speed, journeys is that I learn the gear system. I'm talking about foreign bikes here and not your own personal bike. From them, I check the handling of the bike. Some bikes are heavy but if used properly, they can go really fast. I don't really like big bikes cause firstly, I can't really squeeze through things if I know I can't handle it and secondly, though it can go really fast, it takes stamina to keep it going. I lost stamina half way through my life.

I love bicycles alot. Though I can't do fancy tricks, I jus love the feel of going fast. Explains why half the time I go really fast then slow down a little to catch my breath. I learn alot on my own about bikes and sometimes I incoporate real motorbike theory/physics into it so that it works for me.

Enough about bikes, we ended our beautiful journey and went to wash up. Aim wanted to 'look' at the bowling alley. Bowling? Bowling?! I love bowling! And I definitely miss playing it. So why not play then just look at it. The Babies played a game each while Aim and me had a go at two games. Not my personal best but after playing, I think I'm going to play it again.. after the fasting month.

It was time to say goodbye. Janice, my ex classmate, organized a class dinner the day before. I've always been the 'outcast' in class back in semester one (not that I was being outcast, but I hardly go break with them cause I usually go with the Fee Faan gang) so I told myself, well, why not? I went to centerpoint to go sent a pair of shoes to get expanded and join the gang at Swensens. Of all places, they had to choose my sister's working place! Joe, Jie Han, Janice, Vee, Hazzy, Gerald, Gulshan were the gang. A really small group but it was worth the trip. So we ate at Swensens. I made a deal with Joe to share my fish and chips with him and he share his baked rice, but I ended up eating it alone cause I was dead hungry.

Decided not to have dessert there. Earthquake?! No, I was too full for two scoops of ice cream. The gang really wanted dessert. Had to follow the flow. We ended up at Wheellock place. Ate dessert at NYDC. I got myself 'Grandma's gone nuts' thinking it was going to be a cool mudpie due to its name but I was dead wrong. It was nice, no doubt about it but it was just too nutty! Nutty as in every, yes every bite of it had nuts in it. They should rename the dessert to 'Grandma's got balls to put so much nut in it'.

NYDC has the coolest names in their menu like for example, Jedi Mudster.. Err. I forgot the rest but yeah Get a Life. Sorry, I was refering to NYDC's tag line. My stomach was abused to the max. I ate all day long and not forgetting endless expensive service charge and GST. Sheesh, Delifrance is still the best in terms of pricing! Headed back home and clocked in at 11 plus. Worst than doing full shift! I'm dead beat. Kakak message me to ask if I could work tomorrow at 8 am. My answer, yup. Sure.

Was on my way back with a friend of mine. He said something that really 'made' my day today. He told me about this girl who was attached to his friend. No names of cause but I'm just pissed at her. She said they were just friends. She said she had no strings attached. She lied. That's for sure. My friend described her well and it suits the description. He can't be lying can he? Why can't you just tell the truth? Why keep it a secret? Why not just say it. It's not like it's going to kill me. At least tell me.. so I don't have false hopes...

.: A DaY GoNe BaD :.


Due to the fact that I was actually sick yesterday, I decided not to do an entry. I think my immune system is at it's lowest. Think I'm going to die soon. Think I'm being paranoid. Think I'm over reacting.. Think I'm just joking.

Went to work late today cause I the body was aching like crazy. I wanted to just skip work and ask for an MC but I figure if I were to do that, I would probably be hanged next week when I see the gang. So, there he went, off to work without a sense of direction.

P.S If you see me on the street looking down and walking really fast, don't bother to say hi. Not that I I'm in a rush or I don't want to talk to you, but that's the point of time when I'm in that "please I'm figuring out what I WAS suppose to do mood"

Work was fine after all except the fact that I'm having a stomach ache now. I'm still figuring out what we ate back in the store that gave me this mess. Came back home late as usual. Took my own sweet time and watched soccer for about 10 minutes at Trader's hotel cafe which was like practically beside the store.

I've just summited the proposal to the 'big people' to get funds for my Babies. Think I'm going to hook up the gang to perform in a primary school for Children's Day. Sometimes I asked myself, "Is it worth the effort?"
"Why go through hell when the others are just lazing around doing nothing"
"Why do you do the shit and others get the name"

Well, I have just one answer for all those questions..
"I do out of passion and not for fame"

I like what I'm doing now. I enjoy every moment of it. I don't need recognition. I rather keep it on the low key than have everyone know then criticizing what you do. So, before you start commenting on how I run my stuff, understand how I do it then you can start your nonsense of how I run it.

Why must everything fall on a Monday..

Babies outing - East Coast
Dinner - Holland V with the ex classmates
Fee Faan! - Sentosa
Aherm - I don't know, she ask me to plan it...

Why?! WHY!! WHY!!!
Ain't Monday's suppose to be Monday Blues? What ever happened to that term? Please...
If I were given a choice.. I would choose...

.: She SaiD SorrY I SaiD GooDbYe :.



Am at Grandma's house now. Time check. 2.33 am and counting. Am off to bed soon. Was playing game and got hooked onto it. Need sleep urgently. Full day ahead tomorrow...

.: ShE CaMe BaCk :.


Results for the semester came out a few days back. I'm not sure exactly when, but it came out. Naturally, I was not looking forward to looking at it cause of a few reasons..

1. I skipped three lessons for each module
2. I sleep in class when people are doing presentation (and even during mine!)
3. I come to class at 11.00 am when it starts at 8.30 am!
4. I do nothing cause apparently my team mates like to do it their style
5. I take super long 'ritual like' breaks
6. _____________ (this space is for my classmates to fill in if they want to)

So it came as a shock when I looked at it. Here it goes..


So.. the moral of the story is... I passed (starts wiping off sweat) In a way I'm motivated after looking at the results. Not that it gives me more reasons to slack more but this shows that you can slack and score at the same time (Now that sounds very wrong) So I've decided to change my attitude...

1. Come to school everyday unless hospitalized
2. Listen attentively when people present their findings
3. Come to class on time
4. Contribute to workload
5. Shorter breaks and maximize work
6. _____________ (this space is for me to type down NOT)

Time flies really fast while your enjoying life. The fasting month is coming and I haven't prepared myself mentally. Looking forward to next week as I prepare for the reopening of school. Not that I'm happy about the end of the holidays, but I want to know who my classmates are.

But besides school stuff, work has been tiring. Not that I was serving a hundred hungry customers, I'm just tired of laughing like crazy each time I work... Now that's what I call a great work out..

.: MoRe tO CoMe :.









Now that I have posted more pictures (thanks to Aisyah) I'll tell you what I did yesterday. I went out to get drunk on chocolates! I won't tell you where it is but here's a clue..



The picture was taken quite some time back but the clue is, look at the background. Go figure where it is. If you still don't know, I suggest you get a map and if you're still clueless... okay lah I'll tell you where it is if you ask me.

It was a pretty long tiring day yesterday. I don't know why. Must have been the chocolates cause I was drowsy. As in seriously drowsy. I slept standing while I was on the way home! I'll summarize what we did...

1. Went to get my passport extended
2. Ate at Sakura
3. Walked around Peninsular
4. Walk more around Peninsular to find a shop that was closed
5. Went to Funan's toilet
6. Crossed over to aherm* to eat chocolate
7. Waited one and a half hours to eat it cause there wasn't any staff around!
8. Detour the whole of aherm* cause the roads were all closed!
9. Browsed through millennia Walk
10. Got lost and decided to go home


I don't want to talk about today cause I'm just plain tired. All I can say is I've tried my best. I've came this far, I've lost so much. I gave up something I truly love for this. And what do I get in return.... Silence...

.: LeaVe :.


I'm currently very busy shopping for my Babies, so I don't really have the time to blog right now. I'l leave you with two pictures. I'll talk about it some other time. All I can say, it was worth it...







Let's just put it this way. I'm not so much of a 'I say you do' kind of guy cause I hate authority. No, don't get me wrong. I'm not talking about police officers here, I'm talking about someone who has authority. For example, teachers, prefects, bosses and so on. Believe me when I say that I can get mad like any other human on this world. So please don't do it. I rather have this happy go lucky image of mine.

So Percussion was cancelled in a way due to 'overwhelming' response. Trust me, I don't really have the time to chase everyone now but when I do, damn will I be very pissed. We ended up eating at Sakura, then heading to Bras Basah Complex to check out the drums. Nothing really fancied me cause maybe I still love Baby Djem but one did though. It was this small LP drum called 'The Claw'. I want that!

Had to go Larissa Cafe. Vieda waited for me though she said I could late at the very last minute when I was busy shopping! Mas Asep's brother passed away in the afternoon in Jakarta. I pity the old man cause he did tell me that he wasn't feeling well and that he had this uncertainty in his heart. I believe in such things cause family (especially mothers) have this 'special senses' towards each other. I remembered one time my mother told me that she felt funny the whole day and at the end found out that someone close to me passed away shortly after that. When will I feel that way...

It's really hard losing someone, and please I'm not talking about break ups here. The last time I cried really badly was when my Grandfather passed away. It was backed in Primary 6 if I wasn't mistaken. All the cousins were at my Grandfather's place. My Grandpa was in the hospital. Mum called to gather everyone and go to the hospital together. All the cousins. So we went happily together. We had no idea what was happening at the hospital cause all the adults were there. We were really young and I think the oldest in the group was Secondary 2.

While we walk towards the MRT station, we came upon this game shop. We got carried away and lost track of time. I bought a few cards and also some toys. It was Pokemon. Yeah, Pokemon cards if I'm not wrong. So after spending quite a long time there, we continued our journey to the hospital. When we got there, the room went dead silent. I remembered I entered the room first. My older cousin who was there before us had tears in her eyes. She said...

"Embah takder lagi"

For a moment I though she was kidding but when I saw my Grandfather, the mind just went blank. I ran out of the room and cried to myself at the lift. When we reached, he had just passed away a few minutes ago. So if we didn't go spend time at the shop, I could have seen my Grandfather for the last time. I regretted my life for that. I made a terrible mistake. Till now, I still think of what stupid things I do in life.

.: EveN The GreaTeSt haS to FaLL :.


The time was 10.32 pm. Feeling a little disorientated after alighting from the bus, the phone vibrated in my pocket. A familiar name popped out in the inbox and I tried to straighten myself up first before going ahead to read the message cause I was busy figuring out where I was headed to.

So the message said...


End message

And after I replied to her, she gave me another one...


End message

I swear I smiled so wide the minah who was beside me at the traffic light thought I was some crazy guy. How can I not love her....

.: tHat'S hOw YoU BriNg Me DoWn :.


Staring at the 'fill in the blanks' title space while switching through multiple 'what the hell is going on' tabs and listening to some 'heartbreaking please leave me' songs, I've decided to go on with the justified title above after much debate, or might I say complications.

My computer is going through it's major PMS mode. Don't get me wrong, my computer doesn't have physical qualities of that to a woman (if it did, I would be stuck 24/7) but it's becoming more crazier by the minute. Yes minute, not day. That's my interpretation of a woman's monthly ordeal.

So I figure, if my computer is starting to work like a woman (and no, not any normal Jane you see walking down the road, I'm talking high class 'get me my Prada' kind of woman) I would really need to service her. No offence ladies, when that Credit card advertisement came out with the tag line "the men just don't get it" or something like that, yes, we man don't understand you woman. Not that we try not to, but it's worst than figuring out Visual Basic codes. So for those who don't know the program, just think Circuit boards you see when someone smashes open an MP3. Okay maybe you don't know that, what about learning Dialect? Complicated? Ah, that's how close you are to understanding woman. Or someone of the different sex.

It's a freaking 'day to party you ass' Saturday. If I never end abusing my social life, I think I'm going to grow old with cats around me. (I stole that line, or part of that line, from an old script) It's time to slack. It's time to go back to 'Hey Hafez, I see you every freaking day balls' days. Damn, have I changed a lot. No, I'm not talking as in appearance wise, I'm talking about this 'let's make a difference' attitude I have in me. So I used to be the guy who didn't have a single commitment in life and the guy who hated school so much let alone come for classes after school, but it seems to me that I'm using this opportunity to hide something. I still don't know what it is. Why am I doing this? God knows. Let's us someone. Where do I start?

I'm off...

.: ConFeSSioN oF a LoSt BoY :.


Time check, 2.17 am and counting. I just came back from meeting Zul, this time round no more infested void decks full or cockroaches. I was feeling uptight. I don't know why. Just needed a little time off for myself.

I just realized that my life revolves around school and work. My social life? Sucks to the max. I just ain't got time for myself. It's either I'm too busy or I'm just plain lazy. Either options, I think I'm not in the right mind to do anything straight. Now now, my sentences don't even make sense.

My schedule next week is packed. If I go on like this, I might as well run a welfare for the people who have loads of time on their hands. What I really need now is cash plus time to spent all of it which I think I've just done on the very first day of pay day. Oops.

It's getting late (technically early) so I guess I'm off to sleep cause I've got work tomorrow (which is actually later in the afternoon) After much thought, I'm going to aim for a license at the end of the year....

.: I waNt ThaT :.


So before I go on, to all those that want me to link them up (or relink) I'll do that really soon. Once I'm in the mood to 'open the easy to access take only a few minutes' tab and update the links. Well you see, Hafez is a really really lazy boy. So lazy, it takes him months to figure out that the links (most of them) are either wrong or already not in use!

To Alynn - Yes Baby I'll link you up soon.. Promise
To Sayuri - Yati! Sure thing girl.. Soon also
To Ash - Though I'm sick, I still want to hang out with you. Chey
To Jiha - Link you up... Soon like the rest. Haha Fair and square
To Kit Ain - Hey! You look damn different too!

I've just realized the number of people who tag me. They are all girls! Hey! What happened to the guys? You guys make me sound like I don't have any friends! But either ways, I don't know who the hell is Abigail and Daniel on the tag board. Please don't press the link cause it's to some Pornography website. Trust me on this. If you still curious, go check it out for yourself. Be warned! Definitely NSFW. That's Not Safe For Work in short.

So my clashed mix trashed schedule today was very smooth actually. I didn't meet up with Aisyah and Zul so I ended up with Mum and little brother. Went shopping. See, guys are much better shoppers than girls. Cause we guys know what we want, girls like hmm.. take forever? Met Vieda after that at night and went for dinner with the Larissa Cafe gang at River Valley if I'm not mistaken.

Today is officially the last day I see Mas Taufiq. He will be going back to Indonesia to probably get married. We only met for a few days but it's like as though with have known each other for years. He said something to me that really made me feel good in a way...

"After a year plus in Singapore, you are my first friend "

He is 33 this year. Indonesian. A typical kampung boy cause we went to Burger King the other day and he couldn't even finish half a burger. Look on his face, he doesn't like fast food. Could really see that he is happy I'm with him though language is a barrier. He talks Indonesian, I speak M&M language (Mat Minah) so go figure how we talk. It's really a pity that we only met for a few days. Vieda and me bought him a tee shirt and I burned him a few songs, all local cause he wanted to bring back local songs to Indonesia.

So mushy stuff aside, cause I'm starting to sound gay all of a sudden, school will reopen in about two-three weeks time. Holidays don't even feel like holidays. It's either too fast or it's just plain boring. I'm broke again cause I went shopping. Bought this jacket for $79. See, things like clothes that cost more than $50 to me is already way off my budget. Let's put a list of the most expensive stuff in my wardrobe. Not in order of cause.

Formal shirt - $200 + (Givenchy)
Tie - $100 + (Hugo Boss)
Belt - $100 + (Hugo Boss)
T-shirt - $40 + ? (I've got too many too figure out which is expensive)
Pants - $200 + ? (Hugo Boss though I don't really wear them)
Jeans - $100 + (Levis)
Boxers - $10 (SpongeBob)
Pullover - $200 + ? (Burberry)
Jacket - $79 (Samuel and Kevin which I just bought)

And the most expensive thing in the closet goes to..... (drum roll) my Hugo Boss coat! Price tag is unavailable at time of purchase so please check store for details...

And I think that's all I can think of now. I'm a big spender but I don't earn much. Sheesh... And please, I'm only 19 though I look way off my age. People still want to see my IC when I go buy cigarettes!

.: So She SaiD :.


Before you jump the wagon and call me emo head (ah yes you, yeah you the girl who always say I emo head) the title of the post is not intended for the girl species (and neither the guys too just in case you think I'm not straight) it's meant for my laptop!

Went to work today at Delifrance after a really long break for it. I left it in the office.. I think! That's the worst part! I THINK i left it there! Shit, I'm dead if I loose it. I'll probably commit suicide! Okay maybe not to that extreme but maybe somewhere close to there. So many memories and important stuff in that. And the best part is that I don't even have the cash to get myself a new one let alone loan one from the school.

Had Percussion Ensemble today. I was late for it cause I was coughing like mad in the morning. I think I'm suffering from 'MPS' that's Major Pemalas Syndrome. Oh yeah, something I made up two minutes ago. Maybe it's me, maybe it's the hormones, or maybe it's just something else. I don't know. Either ways, I just hate the feeling of it.

So my dearie can't meet me tomorow. Oh sheesh.. Okay she's not my dearie, she's a erm, let's try to make this less painful to read, pain in the neck? Pain in the butt? Hehe. No lah, she's sweet, though I've never tasted her before but she's like just you know.. errr at times. Geram nyer macam nak cubit cubit.

Always blame me. Always say waste her time talking to me. Always say I this lah that lah. Now who's the irritating one nudging me all the time on MSN?! Ah see lah! Always me me me. When is it you you you?? Haha, but still I love her as a friend. So very the gullible lor. Hehe. You better go out with me next Tuesday. I don't care.. or else.. no chocolate for you!

I'm still coughing like a choked pipe so I'm off to take my rest now. So this is tomorow's plan...

Morning - Take Laptop from workplace
Afternoon - Take brother out shopping
Later afternoon - Send brother home and meet Big Zul
Evening - Meet Vieda to go shopping
Night - Hang around Coffee Bean with Mas Taufiq and Mas Asep
Late night - Clubbing? Cockroach infested block? Sleep? Get laid?

Okay i was kidding about the last point but yeah.. that's the master plan.. Now where's that pillow of mine....

.: A feW MoRe DayS :.


So if I were to actually describe in what stage of sickness I'm in now in terms of media, it would be post. Seems to me that everyone around me is sick. The same old school I need an MC sick, coughing, flu and fever. I now strongly believe in air borne diseases now. I bet you someone from the last cabin towards Boon Lay is going to get sick because if me cause I was coughing the whole way out back from town.

So as promised, I'm going to start bitching, oops I mean blogging, about who this mummy/s is/are. Please do take note of the singular and plural form. So this term Mummy is given to someone because she's a mum, meaning she has a child. So I'm not married and neither have I got a kid running around by the name of short gun.

I call the people close to me Mummy due to many factors. There are many factors cause there's more than one person I call Mummy. Think I should call them Mummy 1, Mummy 2, but anyways back to this Mummy story. The very first person I called Mummy was Lala. I called her Mummy cause they used to make fun of her saying she was a minah, but she definitely wasn't one. So Mat's and Minah's usually used the term Mummy Daddy to acknowledge each other. It all started when this 'Anak Metropolitan' show came about. So I called her that strictly in the name of fun. Then I called Malvina and Aisyah, both my classmates, Mummy too cause again, the same reason why I called Lala that.

So I'm running Percussion Ensemble. I call the members Baby. (This is an even longer story so we will save it for another day) So technically, if they are my 'Babies' so to speak, that makes me instant Daddy. So my two sidekicks happen to be girls so I call them Mummy. So there's Mummy Fadila and Mummy Lizzie. Both also Doink at times but yeah that's why I call them Mummy. It's not that I'm attached to them but it's just in the name of fun.

So that rounds up the story of how Mummy got her name. It's going to be a crazy Thursday, I predict, cause I'm meeting so many different people at different times. So I think I'm meeting Aisyah first, she's priority of cause, then Zul, he's maybe cause he's busy, then my little bro, I'll probably be bringing him around, my Ustaz, then Zul and little brother will be tagging along while Aisyah makes her way home, then Vieda and Taufiq, cause the chef's going back to Indon on Friday. So... let's see how this goes.

.: CouGhs :.


So let's make this a quick one cause I've got work to do. Morning went to pick up Djembe, returned to school and met Mummy for breakfast. I'll probably tell you more about my Mummy in my other entries. Then went for Percussion Ensemble to teach a few things here and there. Ran to Larissa Cafe and surprised at the fact that my lovely Natasha came all the way just to pass a bar of MARS chocolate she bought me. How could I not love that little girl? Went home with Zul and hanged around under the cockroach infested block till 1.30 am. Went home to realized that I'm suddenly in the mood to do something.

So I've got to go back now to work and settle the stuff. Let's all pray that I get what is needed for my Babies. Ah yes.. I love my babies alot. Sacrifice ah...

.: HoW LoNg WiLL tHIS LaSt :.


So I figure why blog when you're not in the mood? Why think when you can vent it out? So why the hassel of thinking what to put here when you can just copy and paste something from somewhere to really tell people how you feel? It's time for song lyrics I guess.


Just to let you know, yeah, this is where I got the two lines you see on the bottom left hand corner of the screen. I think this entry is like a repeat of my previous entry. Who cares?

.: HaTe ThiS FeeLiNg :.



I've been sick for the last few days and yeah, I think I feel a fever coming. I want to sleep but I can't. I want to eat drugs (oh yeah drugs that make you feel good and not high) but it doesn't seem to help. I want to take a long break... but I get bored easily.

I'm the kind of guy who...
likes challenges..
tries his best to make people happy..
can't sit still..
loves working but likes complaining..
needs a little attention to make himself motivated..

Ah yes, explains why I'm very manje. What? Can't help it what..

So the damn 'recall' function couldn't work. Vieda thought me earlier and I couldn't remember nuts about. Pity Taufiq had to do all the work on his own. I swear tomorrow will be earlier. I'll try my best to. So there I was sitting around slacking. Saw Nita my old classmate/close friend at Gurdian. Oh how much she has changed. But still as bubbly as ever. Will try to catch up with her since she's so near to me. Then I saw this Primary school mate of mine in the train. I bet he didn't recognized me but I sure do know him.

Made me realized how much people change over the years. When I look at my old friends, they all look so different know. More matured, beautiful, better looking.. and the best part is don't remember their names. I can just say hi to people but I don't really know what their names are. I'm that idiotic. Sorry. It's not that you're not that significant enough for me to remember you but I've met so many people along the way that I get names all mixed up. And the worst is Chinese names. I can't remember them for nuts. I should have a name book and photos attached to them so I'll remember them for sure next time...

.: MissEs HeR aLreaDy :.


Wouldn't it be really cool if the choices you make in life comes in multiple choices. Like someone comes up to you, gives you the choices, you make them and the best part is no one marks them! Wouldn't it be nice! No consequences, no screaming, no hatred. Everything is right.

I ended up on school today to settle some issues with my advisors. It was all a gamble cause one of the advisors didn't have a handphone on him and the other is our 'magic man'. Makes me wonder, how come he can be there when he needs me but when I need him, he just disappears. Oh yeah. Now I know why. Own benefit, but anyways, he's still good to me. Bloody devil's advocate.

Brought my little brother along to school today. Was with Mummy and she took care of Syafiq while I went away for my Friday prayers. She's like my secretary/babysitter. I say you should charge people for doing that. Came back to have lunch and had a little meeting with my advisors, except 'magic man' wasn't still around.

Sent my Baby back to Mummy's home. I'm missing you already. Oh no, not Mummy, I miss my Baby Djem. I had to surrender her there cause I didn't want to carry my stuff all the way back to school on Monday due to the fact that I have work after that. Then went to send my little brother back to Grandma's place. By the look on his face, I knew he was tired from all that running around and entertaining my teachers. Ah yes, he was entertaining my teachers. Just pray he doesn't be like his older brother when he grows up.

I carried him on my shoulders on the way back to Grandma's house. Though how much he may be irritating, I still care for the little dude. Went to Larissa's cafe. When I was sitting there, I just realized how many Malay girls there were working in the Irish pub. Yes, Malay girls. Minah's but still. Can't they get a better job?

Don't want to say so much but yeah.. I'm down with a flu.. 3 days in a row now.....



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